That's a Nike term. Their famous logo or mantra or what have you. These days i don't generally use this sort of approach for anything in my life. Especially not with art. Today however i am having an art crisis and i need a push. A fresh perspective. I need a consult with my inner type A personality if she still lives here.
I have so many things on my mind. Many of them are puzzling things. Mostly they are related to goals. I know, i know... i said i wasn't aiming for actual goals in my manifesto but i think i need to adjust my viewpoint.
In the past 10 years some things have changed in the way i function and i am confused as to why. Age is a factor but frankly that is more of an excuse than a fact. Mostly i want to decide what to do about these unappreciated changes. I used to be a highly organized person. I worked full time, had a great deal of responsibility and was engaged in many more artistic endeavors than i am today. And i got a lot of things done everyday.
Honestly i sometimes wonder who it is that is living in my house. This person with red hair sits at my kitchen table wearing my worn out pajamas, eating my oatmeal and talking to herself about various interesting things. What she would like to do, all the things she needs to do. She jumps around a lot in her mind. Sometimes i recognize her but many times i look in the mirror and wonder where the other more efficient, productive and active person went.
People say i am a hard worker, productive, capable of anything i set my mind to. I'm not any of those things anymore. I used to be like that. Now i am a little addled, forgetful. I'm hardly ever task oriented. I don't accomplish much in a day. I'm more of a flitterer than a focuser. More of a wanderer than a busy bee. I would like to understand a little more about how it is that i have changed this much. But more importantly, how it is that i am going to come to terms with these changes and get a grip on myself.
I decided i need to look more closely at the first page in my Little Red Winged Manifesto I ask the relevant question halfway down the page. "What do i need to do to accomplish my goals?" Actually writing this post is one step in answering this. There is another of those interesting blog phenomena happening in the on-line world i inhabit. I saw several references to the 'one word' concept. Over at Relyn's, written about by Maddie and codified by Ali Edwards. I want two words. One is more about the spirit, the other is about practical reality. They make a good team. They can both be nouns or verbs. I am using the verb form. The first is wing the second is focus. I'll have a lot more to say about both in other posts. Today i really just needed to get my thoughts out there and articulate what is bothering me.
love, robin
